Affirmation for Depression

4131322“I now go beyond other peoples fears and limitations.

I create my own life.”

Life Through My Eyes

technicolorAnyone suffering from Bipolar Disorder, know intimately about the negative side affects of the manic episode.  But what about the good side affects.  Personally, I like that the world appears in technicolor.  Everything is bright, colorful and exciting.

 

Creativity

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“Tapping creativity when you have a mood disorder is like trying to quench your thirst…

Sometimes magic gushes forth and threatens to overflow; other times it drips and trickles— or doesn’t flow at all…

Many of us believe these experiences occur more frequently and more intensely for those of us with mood disorders.”

— Lana Castle, author of Finding Your Bipolar Muse

Hurt

Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts.

By : Penelope Sweet

Belief in Success

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To succeed, we must first believe that we can.

Michael Korda

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To succeed, to succeed at what?  I live with the depression part of bipolar every day.  I take enough medications to start my own pharmacy.  And I don’t see myself as reaching my definition of the “normal” mood range.  I was talking to my psychiatrist the other day, trying to explain.  To hell with his opinion of normal.  He doesn’t have to live with “this”.  It becomes hard to continue on the regimen set up to supposedly protect me for stimulus that will trigger an event when I can’t see the prize.  I’m the one who mechanically goes through each day putting on “hats”  (my name for putting on artificial moods and personalities) to socially appear normal for the situation.  I don’t see my moods, social interactions, etc as on the same level as those around me.  But I’m told to continue, to believe I can do it.  Stay on the regimen.  Keep taking the meds.

who am iI haven’t had a serious episode in a year now.  That’s great, right?  I still have the same job, home, companion…… I am managing to keep this blog and other daily activities going.  Is this my normal?  One day I want to smile, just because I’m alive.  Not because the self help books, doctors, therapists tell me it’s the appropriate thing to do.

I believe I can.  I believe I can.  I believe I can succeed at being a productive member of society.  Even though I do have this hurdle called Bipolar.  I believe I can.  I believe I can.  I believe I can succeed at just being “happy” today.

 

Don’t Drag Me Down

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You need to overcome the tug of people against you as you reach for high goals.

– unknownfirework

Memories vs Dreams

memoies“Never let your memories be greater than your dreams.”

By : Author unknown

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Boy am I ever guilty of this!  My memories, the things I can’t change, can’t do a thing about short of accept and file, loom like giants in my day to day.  They overshadow my every waking hour, getting there fingers into my decision making .  And, like a spoiled child, taking away my fun.  Oh how much better life would be if I could figure out how to discipline my memories and put them where they belong.  To have a future, to dream would be amazing!  Energizing!  Just plain fun.

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